this blog is becoming one big imabakan of negative vibes. bad, bad. will lock previous 5 entries or so.

there.


i hope to write with more appreciation of the things around me. yes to positivity.

that you did great. you were fantastic. i believe in you, i support you.
don't ever doubt yourself because you really are talented, smart, and very capable.

*akaaaaaaaaaap*

cheer up.

UP FIIIIGHT! :)

but today was a really fun day! thanks to friends who really took the time and effort to surprise me very early in the morning. like jenny mae, who is almost always late for everything but was there at 7:30 am.
thank you for the cupcakes! thank you for the chocolates! thank you for the jell-o shots! thank you for the greetings! kee, thank you for the doughnuts! there was one with a greeting pa pala. :)
thank you to my mom, and my family at home! yay for food!


i have not yet replied to most who've texted me their greetings. mamaya na lang hehe. pero thank you talaga for making this day special. for making me feel special. i love youuuu!

mamahalin talaga kita ng sobra sobra kapag pumasa ako sa lahat ng exams ko dahil sa ginagawa at di mo ginagawa. di ko alam kung para ba saken yan. pero nakakatulong ata. haha.

you're the good kind of pressure. :)

thank you! :D

pwede wag ka nang dumagdag sa stressors ko sa buhay? hindi bakante ang oras ko. most of it is taken up by med already and if ever i have a little time to spare, i'd much rather use it for sleeping.

it's not that i don't want to go out and have fun. i'm still the same old me..but very much pagod and sleepy all the time. as much as i want to go, my body won't allow me to. it's beyond my physical capabilities.

i dont even know when im gonna have that little spare time. this things are scarce and rare. and they cost a lot.
you didn't even bother to ask me how im doing. well probably what im experiencing right now is as expected, so what's there left to ask diba? pero you know, i appreciate a little "how are you na?" every now and then. i appreciate it also when you tell me you miss me. but to me it seems as though you are telling me that im so distant and faraway from what i was before. well i am. i cant do the things we used to do before. oh i can yeah, but everything has to be planned.

dont expect me to be there in a jiffy. i am now living in a secluded area that's hard to go to, and even harder to get away from. you know i've always been there for you. and i still try to, even if that means i have to cut class. but it now depends on the gravity of the situation whether i'd go or not. please understand that. i hope a phone call is enough for me to prove to you that im still here, and that i still care.

kung pwede ko lang hatiin ang katawan ko. or gawing 48 hours ang isang araw.
andami dami kong GUSTONG gawin. andami dami kong KAILANGAN gawin.
time to grow up, babe. good morning.

diba? have you ever had a dream that you thought was not weird at all? some might just be weirder than the others, but all dreams are weird.

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nung kelan, naisip ko lang na ang tagal ko nang hindi nananaginip. ang tagal ko na ring hindi nakikita ang sun. hindi nakakakita ng stars. yung mga simpleng bagay na kahit kelan pwede mo namanng tingnan pero hindi ko alam bat hindi ko na sila napapansin.

pero okay lang. sumilip ako last tuesday night sa may front lawn nung "condorminium" (Zurbano, 2009) ko. one star shone for me.
nanaginip din ata ako, one afternoon after getting home from school. deep sleep agad ako in 3 minutes dahil sa sobrang pagod.
made an effort to see the sun wednesday morning. dooms day ko kasi yun. at least i saw the sun before i burn diba? i ate at jollibee for breakfast din. haha. parang last supper/breakfast hehe.

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2/3 of the sem is done. so far, i've learned a lot of nice to know things. and some that are not really needed for everyday living but we learn anyway. yung mga simpleng bagay, for example, pasa (bruise), ineexplain namin yung heme degradation at kung anong stage na yun. haha. nonchalantly. we discuss cadavers over lunch. may med student syndrome na nga daw ako, may bago kasi akong illness every week. hypochondriacs na kami! hehe. eh kasi naman. sobrang daming bacteria sa mundo. at ang daming risk factors sa paligid as in. parang ayoko na lang gumalaw. kaso magaatrophy muscles ko.

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i'm home! finally after 3 weeks! that's the longest that i've been away from home. andaming nangyari saken. pero yung bahay namin ganun pa rin haha. magulo pa rin, maingay. pero masaya naman. yiii. cheesy.


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may bago akong theory, "last row syndrome" (Zurbano, 2009).
kasi kung forever ka nakaupo sa last row dahil alphabetical ang seating arrangement, you will surely be a crammer..but a crammer's crammer at that. kasi alam mo na marami namang mauuna sa'yo na tawagin eh. na laging may mauunang magrecite, magreport etc. napatunayan ko yang ngayon in med. like for example, one morning everyone was panicky over our biochem manuals that' supposed to be submitted that afternoon. that is cramming already since you should have done it the night before diba? doing it the night before is cramming na nga din. but me and my groupmates? kebs. wala kaming paki. haha. they're all printing graphs and whatnots na wala kaming lahat sa manuals naman. we started panicking around 4:30 pm. but still, we managed to submit our manuals by 5pm. some of our classmates didn't even eat lunch just to answer their manuals. ewan ko ba. ang point, magaling kaming magcram. kaming mga laging nasa last row. :))


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huwalerleng. namiss ko lang ang LJ. :D

Walerleng. Eto na yata ang pinaka-haggard-pero-hindi-naman-talaga-dapat na week ko in med.
Kasi. Walang pasok ng Wednesday, tapos half day nung Friday.
So technically, 3 1/2 days lang ang pasok.

Tapos biglang jump sa ibang topic yung utak ko. Sige random list.
1. Kinantahan namin ng No Else Comes Close yung cadaver namin. No one else comes close sa dami ng taba at KABAHUAN. Bleeding Love din pala. May mga na-murder (hala double dead) kasi kaming arteries. Haha.
2. Ay wala nakong maisip na number 2. Haha.
3. Birthday ni Arn-arn, yung puppet. Sa Ch7. Ftw. (Ay, baket biglang aso yung puppet? Labo.)
4. Ang ganda sa Eastwood mall. Ay sorreh, first timer.
5. Ryan Reynolds!!!!
6. Ay tanga. Hindi pala si Arn-arn yung may birthday. Si ARF-ARF pala. Haha. Tgush.
7. Kumakanta na naman ng Hapon yung pinsan ko. Araw araw na laaaaaaaaaaaang. :))
8. Naka-2 takas ako ngayong week. Yehey.
9. Namiss ko ng bongga si Valvox, ang amag, at si Renz, ang magna cum laude ng psych na nagbabalance ng semento sa ulo nya. Si Eunice na may adobe reader sa phone (nainggit ako), at si Anne na happy *toot*toot*.
9. Ay tanga na naman. 9 yung napindot kong number. Oh well.
10. Wardrobe malfunction. Fccccccck.
11. 2 weeks na lang omgeeeeee.
13. Samsung Star vs LG Cookie vs Iphone
14. The Quiwa is the man! Haha.
15. Nakakatawa yung ana quiz. Toink.
16. I cringe when I watch the Bareng transform into her real self, the Barang.
17. The powerlab is so sayaaaang sa oras.
18. I am weirder than usual this week. My med friends tell me so.
19. Hoy, ikaw! I very much value your opinion. So be careful what you wish for 'cause you just might get it hahahaha.
20. Mazda 3 woot.
21. Fire alarm at  8am, while my head feels like it's gonna split in two.
22. Ako na talaga. Ang magmamay-ari ng salon in the future. (Jenz, ikaw ang taga-apply ng blush ha? :P)
23. Pero uunahin ko pa rin magkaroon ng gas station.

Inaantok nako. Yay.

Background muna.
Napag-usapan lang yung mga happenings sa buhay ko, at ang pagiging inconsistent ng mga tao. Haha. 

( So eto nga... )

So sa lahat ng mga taong akala nila nasungitan, nairapan, natarayan, napag-taasan ng ko kilay...I'm sorry. Ganun lang talaga yung mukha ko. Hindi ko alam na ginagawa ko yun. Kapag ginagawa ko siya intentionally, I make sure that the other person knows that I am doing it. Harapan ako makipagtarayan. :D

 

..that I actually enjoyed and liked HBP.

Maybe because I did not reread the book prior to watching. But that would make me not like the movie at all, right?

But one thing remains the same:

ILY, RONALD WEASLEY! :))